Monday, February 4, 2013

Today is my Birthday

 

Yup…today I am older, I turned 59 today. 

 

Sandy McClay Dec 2012

                         Photo Taken December 2012

This is a bittersweet day for me…my Mom was 59 when she passed away.  I think of my family and how it would be if  all of a sudden I just wasn’t there anymore, and it is devastating to think about  it, and to feel it every year….I miss my folks more, not less, as time goes on….wondering about all of the great memories we still had to make, the  second grandson they never met…they were the BEST grandparents to Bryan if only for a year.  I wonder what they would think of the person I have become, I hope they would be happy with her.

This is a photo of Mom and Dad just shortly before they were both gone…my Dad died 14 months after my Mom…he was just 60.

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I wish I could say that today feels good…..it doesn’t…..and that is just how it is….tomorrow will be a better day. :) Thanks for letting me be honest, it means a lot…

32 comments:

Debby said...

Happy Birthday. They were young. Sad. Enjoy every day.

Ruffles and Relics said...

Hope you were able to enjoy your day!
My parents also passed at a younger age and 4 months apart {

vivian said...

aww, my precious friend. Im sure it is a very bittersweet day. but I have to say, you look beautiful. I bet your mom and dad are both proud of you and someday.. (hopefully another 25 years or more from now) they will get to tell you.
till then, I bet they would want you to wear a party hat and eat some cake and really celebrate your life.
Happy Birthday girlfriend!!
xoxo

vintage grey said...

Happy Birthday Sandy!! So pretty you are!! Wishing you a blessed and beautiful birthday and year ahead!! xo Heather

VintageBettys said...

Happy Birthday Sandy! Your parents look like they were a very happy couple :) and I certainly think they would be happy about who you became. You are beautiful :) Thank you for stopping by....I can feel your pain...my father and of course Ashley were also to young to die...God must have needed them for something bigger..it is too big for us to understand now, but we are blessed to have good memories and to have had them. I have to try to think positive, that is how I get through everyday.

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
TO
YOU....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
Dear SANDY!!!
Happy Birthday to YOU!
Great photo of you! I'm with Viv, celebrate YOUR day!!!
love,
deb

Marissa said...

Have a fabulous Birthday!!! Your parents looked very happy. I am sure they would be so proud of you today.. Happy Birthday to you!! many blessings..Xoxo Marissa

Fran said...

Happy Birthday! I hope you were able to have a wonderful day. xoxo Fran

Coloradolady said...

awwwww, Happy Birthday. Sometimes you just have to feel what you feel then move on. I have days like that and I understand more than you know.

I hope something left a positive impression on your day....Happy Birthday sweet friend....suzanne

Tammy's in Love said...

Imagine me singing, "Happy, happy birthday to every girl and boy! Hope this very special day brings you lots of joy!" Did you ever watch Casey Jones lunch time kid show in the cities? You are my special REAL friend and this year will be a great one cuz you are going to make it a fun place for all of us. God bless you gal pal!

Blessed Serendipity said...

Happy birthday Sandy! I hope your day was a special one.

xo Danielle

chris mckinley said...

What a GREAT picture of you!I am sure your parents would be so very proud of you!! Happy Birthday!!!
Sending birthday hugs,
chris

RetroSandie said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SANDY! What a beautiful woman you are. Isn't it awful how we miss our parents?? But they are always in our hearts, every day. I hope your new year ahead, Birthday Girl, will be a whizzz-bang-lalapalooza!!!!!

Hugs, Sandie

Dewena Callis said...

I'm so sorry you had to lose your parents so early. Naturally you think of them on your birthday. I hope it has turned out to be better than you thought it would and that the coming week will bring many joys.

A blessed birthday to you!

Rose of Sharon said...

Happy birthday. I'm sorry it's bittersweet for you. Our parents are such an important part of our lives. I am blessed to still have mine, but I can imagine what you are going through. I hope that you will have a great day and a blessed year.

Hugs, Sharon

Diane Mars said...

Happy Birthday Beautiful! Hugs and birthday wishes today and tomorrow. Diane

Andy's Attic said...

Happy birthday. I see why it is bittersweet for you. Hope your day was better than expected!!

Speedy Lady (Tresa) said...

Happy Birthday pretty lady. Best wishes!!!

Pam said...

You look like a lovely "young" lady, hope you had a wonderful birthday!
Pam
scrap-n-sewgranny.blogspot.com

Lois' Laughlines said...

I will be 59 in March..I must say, I am repeating it over and over and hopefully by March I will be prepared. Happiest of birthday to you.
blessings.

Patti M said...

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Sandy, happy birthday to you....listen close sweetie your momma is singing it to you with an angel chorus for backup! ......... : )

The Polka Dot Closet said...

Happy birthday, I know that is not what you are thinking. Goodness we are never old enough to lose our parents, but losing them so close together, so difficult, I cannot imagine!

Carol

Patti said...

Happy Birthday Sandy! I love sseeing your pretty face and CUTE haircut, too! My gf at work turned 60 this year. She bought some boots and a short skirt! I haven't worn either since H.S., but ya know - maybe it's not a bad idea!!! My heart goes out to you sweet friend - I can hear your sorrow. You are so loved and appreciated, and I imagine you learned a lot about how to be who you are from your parents. You are such a blessing to me - to ALL of us!

Elizabeth Andrus said...

Happy Birthday Sandy, Do you know our hair and hair cuts are exactly the same! I see myself in you! I know this bitter sweetness of becoming older than your parents, and my heart goes out to you. You are such a wonderful and beautiful person Sandy. I am blessed to know you! Elizabeth

Simply Debbie said...

Happy Birthday Sandy,
It is a bittersweet day for you.
Your parents made a sweet couple and in the picture they look the picture of health.
I'm sorry for the passing of your parents and what you have missed with them but you will have a great reunion one day...that is what keeps me going.
C-E-L-E-B-R-A-T-E THE DAY, as this day, today, will not come again.
hugs and prayers

Kim K. said...

Happy Birthday, sweetie. I know it is so bitter sweet. I hope you were able to enjoy your day. Extra birthday hugs!!

A Vintage Chic said...

Happy belated Birthday, Sandy! What a wonderful picture of you...memories are bittersweet, aren't they? Tomorrow is ALWAYS better, my friend...

Julie

Sigrun said...

♫♫Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you♫♫

My mom just passed away on Christmas Eve, and I arranged for her Celebration of Life to be on My birthday in early January. For me that was the perfect circle of life--I am the oldest of the siblings and all of us were with her in the final days. I first said hello and also "so long, see you later" on that day.

Holly- Cutie Pie Cottage said...

Happy birthday dear Sandy.

I understand the bittersweet. there are soooo many things I wish I could ask my mom now but can't. ♥

Nanette Merrill said...

Sandy your parents died so young! that breaks my heart. they look like the good folks from the good old days we both really miss. As I get older I wish to go back in time and be with my mom and dad that took such good care of me and my very simple and wonderful childhood. I think we have that in common. I know just how you feel. I'm going to be 56 this year. My mom taught me everything I know. My dad was a city cop. I so much wish I could talk to them.

Nanette Merrill said...

Oh. Happy Birthday. we have to be grateful we are having them, I suppose.

Sandy Camarda said...

I hope you had a lovely birthday- regardless of the heaviness in your heart.

Big hugs!
Sandy

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