31 Years…and still ticking…..

Why is it as we get older time seems to move faster???? I used to hear that and think “what are they talking about… time only moves one way”….well, I was wrong, and it feels like every day it is picking up speed….today I am wanting it to just slow down….just for a little while.

Today is my 31st Wedding Anniversary…..it was my second wedding, Wayne’s first…and we had no idea what life would be like as any other couple just starting out….

Wayne and I were married in 1979, in September of 1980 our first son was born. And our life was perfect! We lived in a cute apartment in Carson City, NV and Wayne worked for a great company and we were on our way! In October of 1981 my mother died, in December of 1982 my Dad passed away. The despair was horrible, that first five or so years were so tough…..in 1984 our second son was born, and a terrible depression became very debilitating….this time I couldn’t dig out….and I got on meds and had therapy, a lot of therapy. Wayne never was too far from my side….even when I didn’t want him there and made sure he heard it….it was a tough start. Wayne never waivered, he was in it for the long haul…in sickness and in health.

Even thru all of the fog, I was always aware of how special he was…and 31 years later he is more special to me and my sons…..in ways I can’t even begin to tell you. We have had all of the normal ups and downs of life, raising two boys, both of us working outside the home, trying to make ends meet. I couldn’t seem to weather most of it, but Wayne did….and he kept me afloat, year after year, month after month, sometimes a day at a time. The stress and emotional ups and downs took their toll on my health and still do today. I have many more good days then bad now, thank God! I wish I could say I appreciated him always, but I can’t. He put up with a lot of crap a lot of times. You have heard of “do-overs”? I wish I could have a few when it comes to my husband. But I loved him then and I still do 31 years later, I want him to know just how very much….

Wayne, you are my best friend, my soul mate, my rock and I could never have made it without you. Thank you for sticking with me… I love you so very much!

Happy Anniversary Honey!!!! Benihana’s here we come! :)